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Are you willing to go “End” to “Beginning”?

Tuesday, December 29th, 2009

forgiveness

“In the big scheme of things we are all but pawns in this game called Life”

Wow, if I only had a dollar for every time I’ve heard that throughout the years. However the saying holds true in that we are experiencing the biggest, most fascinating, incredible time ever! Life is a gift as is the relationships we hold with people in general and those we love. We have no control over our Birth or Death, but all in between is our ship to navigate. Time is the key factor of what stands between life and death yet as intelligent beings, we don’t utilize time the way we should. The value of it isn’t nearly realized until time is running out!

Now, I need you to do me a favor (yes, you). Instead of viewing life in our usual and customary manner, I want to challenge you, only for a short moment, to switch your perspective and go with me from end to beginning. That was not an error. I did write “end to beginning”.

But wait! I think I am jumping too far ahead so let me slow down…

As we navigate our ship through life many relationships are formed. Each one falls somewhere on the scale of close to distant. For the sake of clarity this topic will focus on our close relationships because those are the ones which are significant in our lives. When hurt, betrayal, and loss is experienced, we counter those feelings with anger because it’s easier on our heart to feel anger than pain. That process is pretty much a natural mechanism of how we protect ourselves in our most vulnerable moments. It becomes a problem when we carry the anger and resentment throughout our journey allowing it to become toxic in our relationships.

We get so ruffled over the smallest things; “this person borrowed money and never paid it back”, “that person told all my personal business to so and so”, “they did me wrong”, “so and so is always hating on me”, “He lied!”.. I can go on and on. Whether it’s a heartbreak, sibling rivalry, family problems or personal problems, holding onto resentment will kill you quicker than anything else. We like to do things in our own time, and I am a huge believer that time takes care of everything, but understand, time doesn’t move to our rhythm. We are NEVER guaranteed control over the moment we decide to forgive and move on. When Time has shorted us and we’re standing over the hospital bed or grave site of our loved ones, those grudges we held for so long suddenly mean nothing. And all the hurt, pain, anger, and resentment automatically turn into forgiveness. It is in these moments that we hope, wish, and pray for more time to make amends, so why wait?

Having an “end” to “beginning” perspective means at some point you ask yourself is it really necessary to cloud your mind, heart and spirit with fermenting bitterness? As we move in to the last leg of this decade, I encourage you to re-evaluate those grudges and bad feelings you’ve laid so heavy on your heart toward a loved one. I’m asking;

Are you willing to shift End to Beginning?…I’m listening…Holla at ya Gyrl!

Can You Relate to M.E.M?

Saturday, March 7th, 2009

recession.jpgThis month I will receive my first paycheck minus 10% thanks to Governor Terminator. Having to live with a 10 percent cut while still doing a 100 percent job is difficult yet I have much to be thankful for.

I am thankful that I’m spawned from a culture and heritage possessing the strength, ability, and endurance to live without. A culture where adaptation is a constant and having to stretch a dollar is sometimes necessary. Although this is my first global recession, I’ve been through many in my lifetime except my mama called it a different name: Making Ends Meet.

Growing up it seemed we were always in a state of recession or…Making Ends meet. There was no depression or suicidal intentions. When ends didn’t meet my Mama did what she had to do to supplement her income. She has been a Baby Sitter, House Cleaner, Meal Preparer, Cookie Maker, Errand Runner, and Gardener to name a few. My sister and I had to live without the latest and greatest toys because getting what we need took precedence over what we want. We were forced to use our imagination. Therefore we sewed our own doll clothes, made dollhouses out of card board boxes, rode bikes, skated all day long, and made “gourmet” pies from dirt and water. Yes, we experienced difficult times, but through it all there was a whole lot of fun and laughter.

When I watch the “panic antics” of the news and other media outlets talk about our recession, I’m thankful my peace and happiness are not invested in “things” I can’t afford or trying to keep up with the Jones’. Who are the Jones’ anyway?

How have you been affected by this recession? Can you relate to M.E.M?…I’m listening …..Holla at ya Gyrl !

Godspeed,

Latoya

Do You Mourn the Demise of “Real Grandma’s”?

Friday, August 22nd, 2008

grandma.bmpI spent a good part of my childhood/ adulthood with my Grandma Beulah Mae Thompson from Kinston, North Carolina. My Grandma was The Big Mama of the family. When she left North Carolina for California, she brought all her Southern values with her. I love that fact that my Grandma’s appearance was classic Grandma. She was short in height, with a round circumference, and donned the sweetest, most genuine smile one could imagine. It was rare to see her with out her house coat or Moo Moo on and even rarer to see her without an apron tied around her body. She was as much Diva as she was Domestic. Come through on a Sunday morning and you’d see Beulah Mae in a two piece skirt suit or dress with matching shoes, clutch bag, gloves, wig, hat and glam accessories to put the finishing touch on the look.

The kitchen was her sanctuary and every Sunday, Sunday Dinner was cracking. When Grandma whipped up any of her southern dishes she moved like poetry in motion, shaking one seasoning after another. A handful of this, a few shakes of that, nothing was ever measured yet the flavor in her food remained consistent. Oh, and desserts????!!! Let’s talk about Sweet Potato pie, Peach Cobbler with home made crust, Lemon Cake drizzled with a zesty glaze, White Cake, Coconut Cake, 7-up cake, Banana Pudding to name just a few.

It may sound like I’m bragging and I am but… I’m mourning also because my generation (the X’ers) is the last of generations to experience a real, cookie baking, kitchen throw down, Grandmother.

Grandma’s and Big Mamma’s have been replaced by the Na Na’s. The Na Na’s are a cooler, sexier upgrade than the Original version. Na Na’s don’t have time to cook and have traded family treasured recipes for box meals and trips to the Drive Through. Where Grandma’s door was always open to the grand kids, Na Na will quickly remind you she is hanging out with the girls and you got to go home to your Mamma! Na Na ain’t baking no cookies. She buying them packaged at the grocery store.

I promise I’m not “hating” on the Na Na’s. I support change and revision to the role of Grandma in our society, however part of this wheel should never be re-invented. It wasn’t until I became an adult that I realized what was really happening in the kitchen. When me and my Grandma was snapping peas or baking a cake together we were bonding and building trust in one another. She patiently listened to my words as if I was giving the greatest American speech of all times and I soaked in all of her infinite wisdom about life. Grandma’s kitchen was therapeutic, Godly, a safe haven to let your guard down and be You. Food represented the puzzle pieces, and the time we spent together was glue that kept the puzzle strong. I cherish all of my memories with my Grandma and when she died, the only possession of hers I wanted was the aprons she cooked in. Merely old material to the unknowing eye, but a priceless goldmine for me. When I cook in my kitchen and put on Grandma’s apron, I feel like she in there with me patiently guiding my hand.

If your Grandma is the BOMB like mine, I wanna hear from you!
I’m listening…Holla at ya Gyrl !

Godspeed ~Latoya~

Do You Love and Appreciate Black Men as Much as I Do?

Saturday, June 14th, 2008

black-world.bmpIf you think you appreciate the Black Man more than ya Gyrl step up and make yourself known. Nothing takes the place of a man blessed in hues ranging from Honey to Onyx. Every color of a chocolate swirl for a woman’s enjoyment. My personal favorite, white teeth contrast on midnight skin presenting a smile so confident and sexy; my mind wanders off to fantasy land. No other man can go from Hood to Corporate and back to Hood in a matter of seconds. No other man but a Black Man can take the ordinary or mundane and elevate it to a class of cool just from his presence alone. The Black Man is intimidating, powerful, gentle, smart, charming, and silent. His silence is not his weakness but his strength. His energy introduces him before his mouth does. This is the only man who, I can say beyond the shadow of doubt, has my back. He will protect his fellow man to a fault. His family will never be without and by any means necessary he will do what he has to do to get what he needs to get. Only my Black men know how a sista’ longs to be touched and how she yearns for him so much. I yearn for Him soo much. Nothing is more beautiful than a black penis attached to a man who fully knows how to use it to tease me, please me, dominate me and make me do shit I thought I could never reason with. When a Black Man is talking sexy in my ear, I have complete trust that from first thrust to last I will be in my happy place, exhaled with a grin on my face. Thank you Black Men. You hold us up, fortify our spirits, defend our honor, and proudly carry us on your shoulders. I love you all!

Ladies if you love them too, you know what to do…Holla at ya Gyrl !

Godspeed ~ Latoya

Is There a Difference Between Being Poor and Materially Deprived?

Wednesday, April 23rd, 2008

girlwithmom.gif I come from an average family growing up like many of my fellow Americans. My mother and father divorced when I was about 7 yrs old and my mother gained the primary responsibility of raising myself and my older sister (I have a little sister too, but she came 10 yrs later). Although my parents were hard workers, I often watched my mother struggle to make ends meet. I can vividly recount many times coming home from school and telling my mother how starved I was.
“Did you look in the cabinets? It’s some can food in there. We still have some left over dinner from last night.” She would offer.
“I don’t want that!” I would say.
Cool as a cucumber she would shrug her shoulders and say, “then you not hungry, because if you were truly starved you would eat whatever food is available.” With that said she would go about her day and keep it moving. I wanted a hamburger and french-fries, pizza or some kind of fast food. I always questioned why I couldn’t get name brand shoes, clothes, jewelry, my own room, more lunch money so I can stop at the store after school. The list went on and on. My mamma made it crystal clear we did not have money for that kind of stuff. I grew up always feeling we were poor wondering what it would be like to walk in the shoes of my many friends who seemed to have everything.
As I became older and more exposed to the world I realized I was never poor or poverty stricken, just Materially Deprived. The word “Poverty” suggest being destitute or unable to be provided with food, clothing, and shelter. None of that applied to me. I may not have had the latest and greatest fashions or lived huge home, but my mamma and my dad made sure the necessities were provided without question. I began working at 16 yrs old and my Dad gave me my first car, a 1977 Chevrolet Nova (my first bucket).
Fast forward today, I admit guilt of not allowing my children the opportunity to be Materially Deprived. They have the latest and greatest “things” thanks to their father and do not expect to have to do much but wake up, and get good grades. Being Materially Deprived allowed my sister and me to be creative and use our imagination. For me, I spent most of my time as a child writing, reading, and playing outside (an activity that has almost become extinct) while my sister took to designing and making the clothes my mamma refused to buy for us. My sister and I fought all the time, but were able to resolve our problems through communicating. No email, text messaging, or cell phones to distract us. No Xbox or Play Station to vegetate our brains, just good old fashioned talking.
Did you grow up Materially Deprived? If so, what effect has it had on how you raise your children? I want to hear your story,
Holla at ya Gyrl !